Starting from scratch
yet again
why do I keep
falling back to zero?
Was so far ahead
so fast that
they declared
I was a hero.
There perhaps
oh God
is something
you want me to know.
But I only wish
you’d use
a kinder way
than pushing me so low.
Each time
I looked back
dug hard
and found something wise.
But the next time
let me rejoice
a while longer
if I reach new highs.
Falling down
getting up and
walking again
might’ve once been fun.
Hand me back
my peace now
I surrender to you
I think I am done.
© Sundaram Chauhan
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I like this.
I makes me ruminate in the notion that while it may seem easier to give up than to keep going; in reality it is harder to do nothing, than it is to one hundred little somethings.
Perhaps sometimes we are knocked down not to be chastised or challenged but to given a chance to reflect on how high we have climbed.
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That’s a good way to reflect on the setbacks… yeah it’s hard to do nothing, even if that means frequent failure… thanks for sharing your thoughts Mr Coremans…🙏🙏
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It’s a test, each time we fall, we get back up, learned to, steady ourselves better, we learn, from each, and every single fall we have…
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Totally agree with you…there is no stopping this cycle, ’cause that’s the cycle of growth. Thanks for stopping by…🙏🙏
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So beautifully written, I can much relate to this, at moments when I have been motivated to do something grest only to lose ground in due course of time. And yet sometimes it’s also a bit of relief for me to cede ground and be the underdog. I suppose I was never a fore runner by choice.
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Well said….it actually feels good sometimes to be an underdog. No expectations weigh you down, and you can again feel light enough to take a flight. Thanks for sharing your views Deb…🙏🙏 Appreciate it. ☺️☺️
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Cleverly cute, Sundaram.
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Thanks Jason. 🙏🙏 Appreciate it. ,🤘🤘
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Nice words Sundaram!
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Thanks so much…🙏🙏🙏
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Last line so well resonates. Struggle has its charm once but too much struggle is a chaos. Peace is all we seek.
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Thanks dear…🙏 Yes that’s the ultimate goal, and an ever elusive one.
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🤜🤛 I like this one more
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☺🙃 🤘🍀🤜🤛 You take care girl. 🍀🍀
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Hahaha.. thanks. You too
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It is very well written. Really.
But you know what, no matter how much we wish for these we will be falling back. Maybe harder than before. Wishing you the strength to bounce back even harder.
Special mention for this…Why do I keep falling back to zero!! It just feels so relatable.
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Thanks Chetna…yup…falling back is inevitable…I agree…and I’m all geared up for it. Just a thought thinking back on it. I appreciate your kind support my friend. And rest assured I’ll always bounce back harder. Sharing the feelings only makes us stronger I have experienced. 🙏🍀🍀🙏
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It’s good to know this. High on spirits!!
And yeah, I felt so nice after reading your last line.😎
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Great post, re-shared it here: https://grumpysgiftspoetry.org/2020/08/29/my-peace-sundaram-chauhan-my-short-stories-thoughts/
Thanks for being generous with your words.
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Thanks so much for sharing the message…🙏🙏…appreciate it. 🤜🤛
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“Hand me back my peace now”. Powerful. And I feel this so much. Excellent piece.
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Thanks so much Sandy… ,🙏🙏🙏, really appreciate your kind words. 🍀🍀🙏
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If not for the valleys…..where would be the mountains? The deeper they are from the peeks the higher up our eyes go to find hope. Keep your eyes on Jesus. I loved your writing. I’ve been at that place….again and again…but only there, as I look back, have I grown the most.
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You’re so right. Peaks are nothing without valleys, and it’s all a process for growth. A never ending process. Appreciate you sharing your kind thoughts. 🙏🙏🤘
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Very interesting though It sounds like my story
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Glad you can relate. 😀 Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts. 🙏🙏
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Such a full and thoughtful writing… it encourages me to begin, to keep going, to surrender, to let peace come.. I find it very easing, thank you Sundaram 🌷🤘🙏
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I really hoped that the positivity would shine out of the darkness the poem was based on. And I’m glad it did for you, Ellie. Thanks so much 🙏🎉🙏
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Very much so. I found great hope within it. 😊🌷
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What if we don’t soar when we succeed? Then we won’t fall and hurt when we fail? I am going to give it a try.
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Now that’s what the zen teaches, and so did the Buddha… staying unaffected by the high and lows of life. Feeling the feelings, without reacting to them. That’s a very noble aim, but quite as daunting to achieve. I try that myself. 🙏🙏🙏
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I agree it is not easy at all. I am working on it too. I am trying to reign my joy in when things go as per my wish. Hopefully that will help me stay centered when things don’t. But it is definitely a life long journey 🙏🙏🙏
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Agree…a lifelong journey it is…glad you relate to it. 🙏😀
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Your words remind me that sometimes we must choose to rest. Not every problem is ours to solve, not even all the ones that directly involve us. It is healthy to acknowledge our limitations.
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Very well said, Hamish. It really brightened up my day. To acknowledge our limitations. To sometimes simply be a failure, and let ourselves be at the bottom to breathe. And then rise again.
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Amen to that. With a little time we will rise like the Phoenix from the ashes of each defeat.
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maybe we don’t see the subtle growth, nice theme, I loved it
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Yes the growth is so very subtle that it escapes our notice in the short run. But we should keep that in mine. Thanks so much for contributing to the thought. 🙏🙏🙏
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Lovely read ✨✍️ well done 💐
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Thanks Simon 🙏🙏 appreciate it. ☺️👊
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Opening had exceptional pull-in effect. Love this: “Why do I keep / falling back to zero”
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Thanks Benjamin. 🙏🙏 Appreciate the kind words buddy. 🤜🤛
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Welcome!
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Wonderful, Sundaram. 🙂🌸
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Thanks Brooke…🤜🤛🙏🍀🍀
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Beautiful, and I love the artwork!
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Thanks so much 🙏…the artwork is from Pinterest. 😀
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Really well composed! Liked it.
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Thanks so much Wasim.🙏 Really appreciate it. 🙌🙌
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Damn beautiful! So very relatable!!
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Thanks Shreya…🙏🙏 Glad you could relate. 🤜🤛🙌
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This is so beautiful!!! Written so amazingly 🙂 🙂
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Thanks so much 🙏🙏🙏
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The degree of the recovery is in direct proportion to the degree of the surrender…🤓
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Isn’t that so well said? I love it. Yeah truly. 🙏🙏 Thanks so much.🤜🤜
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🙏 Thank you for your words of wisdom. Truly.
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Love this, as sometimes it can feel like a tug of war
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Thanks Camille…appreciate the kind words. 🙏🙏🍀
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So nicely written and so relatable.👍
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Thanks so much…🙏 Glad you could relate…🤜🤛🤘
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Hello Sundaram –
Thanks so much for the follow on I Write Her. I appreciate it!
Have a nice day. 🙂
Susi
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My pleasure Susi…🙏🙏…keep writing her…🍀🌸…Wish you loads of inspiration…🤘🤘
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Absolutely! ❤
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Beautiful!
Zeroising myself,
i optimised Self
and then felt
e v e r y t h i n g done.
And then i felt
the optimum
fulfilment,
felt everything done !
😌
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Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts…🙏🙏
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Beautifully put Sundaram..yes God has a heavy hand with us at times..but it is so hard to get our attention! I love how you expressed this cycle..and yes it is the only way we will grow. Your poem, takes it out of theory and brings it to the personal, the feelings of frustration and despair, to find oneself at the starting line..once again! I have of course felt this too in my own life, but as I get older I look back and see the wisdom of each start over. Stagnancy is death…but at some point, like you, we say.. we are done..and ready for what comes next. Wonderful poem Sundaram, and very relatable to me personally my friend.
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Thanks Karima… well said…It is so hard to get our attention….
It all feels so justified, required even retrospectively…
I too have only grown, as you mentioned, by starting over… for years sometimes it feels like a stagnant life, and then one fine day you start at a heightened state, wondering what really changed.
Thanks Karima…🙏🍀🙏
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Beautiful !
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Thanks.
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Most welcome!
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